I think my bout of being miserable with life is over for the time being. But I also know why its over. It's been a combination of things. Simple things really, that can make your life terribly complex. Smoking (and not just cigarettes), drinking, and Rock 'n Roll. Everything but the sex is missing, sad, I know. But at times, the sex part is not so simple. Maybe it needs to be.

I now know how people can live on drugs forever. Being high is becoming a daily ritual, and I love it. "I Fu*%#ing love it!" And being high at a Foo Fighters and Weezer concert is definitely the best. It's the most amazing feeling ever. Being high at a rock concert. You feel the music, all the way down, down the the bone, down to your soul. You feel it coursing through you, the pulsations, the vibrations, and they're so intense they reverberate through you imitating a heart beat you can feel pulsating through your entire body, and it's the only time I've ever really felt alive. Really alive. It is fucking great. Fan-fuckin'-tastic.

I love Rock 'n' Roll.